i knew that my blog can easily be traced, and i therefore the entry is so vulnerable that it cud be read by anyone in this world. unfortunately, this is the ONLY platform that i cud think of, to express what i viewed.

i have no offence against service actually, it is in fact one of the most important “bidang” that a ptd should have mastered. it is actually much more interesting than kew as it faced people’s emotions, regardless dry numbers in kewangan. but what i cud witnessed in service is that, the progress were so slow, even for producing one letter requires time, where letter kenaikan pangkat, penempatan semula is actually standard, and generally used. i dont know how service in other ministry or jabatan has been. but the system here, definitely needs some reformation.

and maybe a little bit of knock-out shouting wud be gud for their mentality! this is my experience today, where I AM one of the head of service, kew and pentadbiran…

me: hello kak ***, saya nak tahu la pasal cuti GCR saya, saya dah check dalam sistem HRMIS tapi dia tulis kosong. kenapa ye?
her : awak dah check dgn pentadbiran belum?

me: dah…tapi dia kata, GCR dalam sistem hanya dikira mulai tahun 2009, saya nak tahu berapa saya dah kumpul boleh tak?
her: SAYA BYK KEJE LA!!!!

me: hmm takper, saya check sendiri pun takper, buku service ader kat mana ek?
her: ader kat byk byk tempat la….AWAK BAGI JE LA NAMA PENUH …ESOK LA SAYA CARIK….
me: ok…esok pun takper, nama saya S****** la…(thought that she recognized me at the first place…after all dia duduk kat hujung tu je…)

her: “erk…pn s** ker?

selang 3 minit, dia masuk bilik and gave me all the details….

and yes, she is one of my clerk…i had no intention to kenakan dia, its just that if she were so occupied, she shud have tell it in much nicer way…

and its not my fault, dia yang tak kenal suara aku…… so kalau lower rank yang mintak, does she has the right to throw off her tantrums?

i am officially fat…just like kungfu panda

i have come to a stage where i needed to freshen my environment. eversince am here, i ahve mingled quite well with the cikgu here, and today for the FIRST time, i felt i needed a different environment. i took the effort to putrajaya just for lunch, and yes tomorow, i’d be heading there again.

not because i hated these cikgu, they are actually quite nice people, but because there were SO MANY, I REALLY MEAN SO MANY ISSUES that cracks my head regarding penempatan semula, pertukara of DH etc, it really forced me for a lighter thing. preparing surat dukacita moreover, creates more negative energy in me.

i frankly quite amazed how the filing system in the service section has been, as looking salinan surat kenaikan pangkat mengikut tarikh adalah satu perkara yang sgt bodoh somebody cud ever think of. how wud u be able to find the salinan surat kalau u jumble everything in a file?

and we are referring to surat kenaikan pangkat yang beribu. for god sake, can these people at least use their logic for one minute?

my point of view, ketua perkhidmatan DH sgt la considerate. its a gud thing am a ptd, kalau aku ketua perkhidmatan dh, nescaya org yang byk byk songeh akan ko tukarkan ke politeknik mukah beramai-ramai. pada masa itu, bukan Politeknik Shah Alam yang terlebih byk, politeknik mukah yang terlebih nanti. dan kalau ingkar lagik, ku turnkan pangkat cam tan sri sidek cakp..”if u cannot do it, then let somebody else do it for you…”

though in some point DH can hardly agrees with PTDians, the above phrase is well-said…fikir-fikirkanlah…after all, we all are equal.

enuf said.

p/s: am sure byk silent reader drpd  DH yang baca entry aku ni…

i have been tagged by ZETT.

ok…25 things that people shud know about me:

1. i dont really get along with my mum, i only talk to my mum on general subjects, unlike many others who talks about their boyfriends, friends and such…i dont have a real reason why, but i am more of a dady’s gurl, and my word of mouth, trust me can over-rule my mum. i guess, thats why my mum likes my brother than me.

2. i married happily to this non-romantic guy, he is indeed never lembut, all he does was marah-marah aku…but i think i fall for him for that reason. uia gals has been questioning on the logical reason why married this man, it is because he has a beautiful heart, that hardly can be seen. or maybe i can accept the fact that his hobby adalah marah aku!

3. i am pregnant of 5 months now, bearing second child.

4. i am very oblivious to the society, more of, boleh tak jgn nyibuk hal aku coz i dont care about you, especially in work place, byk sgt nak tahu, husband keje apa, anak siapa, bawak kete apa, pegi lunch ngan sape….as far as i can remember, i have not asked about anyone with that questions…suka hati aku la nak pegi mana, duit aku byk mana ke…and i dont understand why the principle what u give is what u get back does not apply in ALL of my work place…. so much of busy-body. i believe i only answerable to my FAMILY and FRENS ONLY….setakat org yang aku jumpa hi-bye dalam lif or in a meeting room..pplease…do u mind ur own business?

5. i am officially the neighbour of amin gorjes…hahhaha( amin aku dah tak tau nak tulis apa…)

6. i am so into interior designing….sangat particular

7. i hate compliments, and i hardly accept them…so people…please jgn puji puji, i malu and dont know how to react sebenarnya.

8. moody

9. i like to argue on any matters, sib baik dapat laki yang suka argue, and trust me, i lose in all of the battles! practice makes purfect

10. saya seorang yang manjakan anak….enuff said

11. saya mempunyai penyakit misteri……hahhahahah

12. i am insomnia freak, my sleep is easily distracted.

zett…tak smapai 25 la…nanti la i sambung….hahhahahahahhaha

i was involved in a heated arguments with one the colleagues yesterday due to work related. though i cant deny i too was quite emotional, i quite somehow cant help but to wonder, why does certain people here are very defensive….as if they are the most knowledgeable. most competent and so forth.

i dont know why i have a mind set like this, it either i cud just blame my parents, or perhaps my schooling days, or probably i can blame adawiyah for influencing me being garang or its just me…..

i believe the quality of your work will speak on behalf. unlike to some, they’d like to boost to others, proudly saying, i have been in this k*w*ng*n for ** years and so forth.

frankly, i dont buy those shits. even so u have indulge urself in 100 years sekalipun, if you are not competent, u can just be as slow as those who are 20 years younger than you. i believe its not the years of experience that quantify the quality of your work, only the determination and the knowledge as accordance to the “peredaran semasa” does.

no matter how many years you have been practising within the same areas, but the knowledge that u have does not sync with the relevant needed knowledge, it is still unworthy.

i am not preaching i am better off then anyone here, he is even probably better than me, but at least, i do acknowledged and proudly admits that i am no jack of all trades, neither a master of one. if anyone u encounter through your life that claimed to be it, then u can just say, he is being boldly arrogant.

after all, knowledge will never ends. but a the end, its the mentality that mould all of us, its how we develop our mentality, how we compete against each other. its all in our hands, the choices and all.

its more like looking at a glass, either u perceived it as a half-empty glass, or half-full glass.

as for me, i hope i wud remain being the first one.