11.26.07
most handsome man
the disadvantages when u are placed in a jabatan is that, no job is well-defined, and of course, the job given to u was only can be limited by the sky. and all of a sudden, i was in charge for the Majlis Promosi Kemasyarakatan di Jeli Kelantan with Mr x. 
and kak kiah was saying to me : “Sab, mr x tu being called the most handsome man in jppkk…byk peminat tu…”-frankly i wasnt sure the forewarning for me or to warned how much trouble i cud get if his fans were to see me wif him….
ok, the main urus setia is me and him…and so i wondered how handsome he cud have been…
and well, to be frank, he is gentlemen..tapi i dont think he was tailored to be my kind of man…
but many gurls were so fond of him…eventhough he is married and blessed wif a child…
and today quite a few had been winking at me, as if i have taken their man away from them…duhhhhhhhhhhhhh…amik la balik…wek wek
p/s: one of my best friend tak tido malm asik ingatkan si mr. x ni….siap selalu sms lagik kat mr.x…its either mr x ader amalkan susuk pemanis atau bebudak pompuan kat sini ni yang tgh mengenyam…walaubagaimana pun…aku tetap peminat no.1 Mr A.K yang tak reti-reti nak jadik romantik tu….
11.20.07
split identity
CAPRICORN – The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.
Sources from yani
I have always thought i am sagi since i was born…but based on what yani has posted, i think i suited capricorn better, especially in the part of holding grudges…….i hold alot peps :p and worst i remembered so many of them…… (though at times i’d rather forget)…but i guess, i shud try to apply the principle of lets forgive and forget…instead of forgive but NOT forget….
p/s: To pah…pls ignore the ambitious thingy written above…our stand remains the same…its still a well-paid hobby..
11.15.07
what have u learnt?
I know, I know….
I have been nagging about my working thingy, and yup…too bad, i’d still be talking about it in this entry as well. If u watched disney channel-Jojo the clown, at the end of each episodes, jojo will be asked, “what have u learnt today jojo?..hey jojo what do u say…we all wanna know what u’ve learnt today”
but since this is my blog..”i have tailored the question to” so what have u learnt while working here Sabrina? and here’s my answer:
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that people here in kewangan had no guts to make any decision at all..even beli bunga pun takut mahal- i dont know whether this has been the impact after the news that caught the gvment people, or it has been their working culture.
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my exboss kat kewangan at kementerian was saying-kalau takut buat decision dlm kewangan, suma benda tak jalan!-ironically, i agree wif her.
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that the people here are so ego, who cant admit that they actually dont know, and are not familiar wif the areas…let it be kewangan or service, same things happened.
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everything are so disorganized and so many people wif different agenda.
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Majority people here are so emo…god, i wonder where were their rational minds-isnt logic supposed to take charge in our actions?
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that people around us like to prejudged others-dlm meeting pengurusan siap complain si anu suka makan gaji buta “i feared that my officers makan gaji buta..”…owh please…is that called so professional of u…? isnt that NOT YOUR JOB to menilai all that things?
not even a month am placed here, am already all stressed up…i wonder how cud i survive the next 3 years perhaps? (borang master sudah ader di dalam tangan)
but life is life, having no choice i have to redha dengan penempatan kat sini, i just have to pretend that things are gud here, i supposed i have to try…..harder…
p/s: menanti dengan setia…bila la jack nak masuk kpt ni?
11.14.07
me and my big mouth
i think i just created a mess.
and i dont know how to mend it…
i was supposed to brief him, about our YB Minister event to Jeli, and thats when me and my big mouth started to inform him that En N*h*r will be doing the tentative aturcara. and thats when he started to mengamuk…
ok ok….i shud take the blame..that before i starts to opened up my big mouth, i shud check on it first before reporting this to my No 1 at my jabatan. Since my colleague told me that En N*h*r will be doing the aturcara, i took the statement bluntly, and reported to him.
But my intention was to tell him, and i never ever have crossed my mind that he could actually mengamuk…
maybe its a lesson learnt for me, that i shud just take up the advice people have been telling me that DG has always underestimated M.
and yup, he mengamuk saying that all the M scheme in kementerian had never had faith in this DG people….
and i only uttered about atur cara, and he went all angry..
well i guess i was wrong for pushing the right button…but biasala at then end…aku jugak yang dipersalahkan as miscommunication. tapi perlu ke kene emo ek?
i guess, its all about competition, in showing which is better, M or DG.
p/s: still grumbling…sorry anyway for the wrongly info…i shud take up the blame, but the emo thing, its ALL yours!
11.13.07
i believe i cant fly
i am still in the “i cant believe i missed the flite” syndrome. and i was anxiously waiting, if ever the flite that i was supposed to take have gone down or blasted down to earth….nah, just still wondering what cud have been the hikmah under all these incidents…
i’d be going to KB for another daily flight, and i dont think i’d like to take air asia as my option AGAIN.
eventhough, air asia flite is much earlier, i think, i’d rather wait…
p/s: better late or never, or better late than missed the flite…sth like that…. 
11.12.07
booooooo air asia
at this hour, i was supposed to be on my way to penang via air asia. However, i missed the flite….
no no no, i dont think missed the flight was the rite word, didnt arrive early to the flite…ha…sth like that….
my flite was supposed to be take off at 6.55am, when i arrived at 6.20am, i still wasnt allowed to came in…
well, as a MAS frequent flyer, half an hour has always been sufficient for me, but for a seldom flyer of air asia, i never knew that 45minutes before flite, no one was supposed to enter. Well, my hubby pun tolong bising-bising sama, tapi like he said, dengan dia yang tak mandi tu, rambut tak sikat..”nak bising-bising banyak pun tak guna, orang pun tgk i cam org tak betul…” ……
i am frustrated, am stucked at my hubby’s office after forced to listen to my hubbys long whinnings and lectures…..and forced to do typing job for him…how bad was that!
“discipline la sikit…tu la u, sibukkkkk sgt nak sembahyang kat umah…..ha padan muka”
“ha…suh bangun kul 4.30 am taknakkkkkkkkk!!!!!”
“habis miting yang u supposed to go ni, u functioned aper? kalau setakat duk dan dengar je baik tak payah……………..”
and he kept on whine and whines…;)
but to think of it, biar la…meeting pengurusan je… :p… but also i shud be thankful to my dearie hubby for wasting time kengkonon sending me to airport, dan amik dan pusing balik, dan kejap lagik kena hantar i balik….huhuhuhuhuhu
p/s:tapi i still think air asia poyo………………booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo…bukannya masa i arrived to derang dah take off…boo air asia…booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
11.07.07
heart-wrenching
i have been pretty busy lately, very very occupied wif all the operational and meetings. furthermore, having a boss that never ever took up the responsibilities, making things not only worst, but becoming more chaotic.
pretty ironic, when i now turn to my ex-bos to console things here. i complaint to her so much, comparing how things were so good back then at E3. it sometimes feels like am the anak manja whom always report to her whats going on here. But i guess, to those whom already knew who my bos is, wud probably understand why my heart has been so rebellious all these while.
looking at things, it’s probably blessing in disguise why i was placed here. looking positive, i am trying to view, i am stationed here simpply becoz i could hands-on on everything. name it service, kewangan, admin (keutuhan minutes of YB Ministry), everything was slump under my responsibility. But trust me, on this note, i put it positive, but in my mind, all i ever think about was negatively heart-aching why was i sent to this man made devastation. Having a boss, whose scady cat for the current interogation about audit, having no guts to take any authority. and worse, having a boss wh knows nothings but pretends he knows all the things, making things a disasturous mayhem. Situation becomes much more shoddier, when he refuse to take any advise from his lower subordinates.
I see it this way, we’d probably becomes a boss in the near future anyway. I guess we shud shrugged our own ego but try to learn from below. its nothing wrong if we dont know. There are areas that we are expert in, and there are things that we have never knew about, so whats so wrong to learn from your subordinates? Trust me, there will be some areas we cud even learn from the drivers or PAR…
turning back to ISLAMIC teachings, it has already warned the believers how power may changed some people, how greediness, insatiablility may harm us. I guess, when power is attained, it enpoweres our rational thinking to be clouded, unable to distinguished in between what’s noble or whats evil.
i can only hope, once i’d be in power someday i wud not forget my grass roots, unlike my current boss, whom forgets that in some points, we are actually learning from each other. this differential treatment must not be condoned…lets just respect each other shall we?
p/s: he shouted b*d*h to the drivers….how pathetic he has been…
